Hello to all. I know I haven't posted in awhile but as Sydney tells her little brother sometimes (when he asks why) "because that's just the way it is."
Well I guess first the practicals. I am going for my 3rd chemo tomorrow along with good old erbitux, and then just one more (I think) until I can get my scan on. I have been feeling good the last two weeks, and just have this REALLY annoying severe dry skin but that is really it.
I just want to reiterate my thanks to everyone out there for their prayer and support and love. I cannot believe it is almost one year ago that all of this horrible stuff started. I can't speak for other people who have/had cancer but I don't think I will ever completely get over the shock. I still have days where I think maybe I'll wake up tomorrow and this will all be a dream. I sit in chemo and think and genuinely wonder "what the heck am I doing here?" There are days when all I want to do is sit in my bed feel sorry for myself, and cry my eyes out. And there are days when I actually feel great, and have this amazing energized feeling and I think "I don't have cancer, what a joke." That thought doesn't last long but I like to pretend for a bit.
Anyhow I generally feel/am pretty positive about the whole thing. I am a firm believer in mind over matter and of course I have all my eggs in the Jesus Christ basket. (yes that was very corny, so corny I just laughed at myself so I must leave it).
Thank you to everyone for all the meals, sending housekeepers, the babysitters, the chauffeurs, the emails, phone calls, cards, letters, and those to whom I subject to my complaining (yes I complain quite a bit). I am sorry for the generalizations but you all know who you are. I don't want to list people and leave anyone out. I love you all very much. I also want to thank everyone for understanding when I don't get back to messages right away, or phone calls, and when I don't attend things (and aren't asked why). I also want to thank all those who take the time to reach out to me when they themselves are going through their own cancer battles. It really touches me and gives me great strength.
I know they don't know about the blog but I also just want to mention that I am receiving and am so thankful for the amazing care I am getting from Dr. Moriarty and the staff there. I genuinely feel like I am their only patient.
I hope everyone has a great Easter and has lots of candy.