Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Never Say Never...Uhhhh NEVER!

I am sorry we haven't posted in a bit. But believe me it is worth the wait.

This morning we (Fran and I) went to see my surgeon Dr. Chamberlain to review the CT scans I had done a week or so ago. For me this was going to be the official word, the stamp in my book that said I'm still cancerous or I am not. Because yes, cancer can come back as early as three months post op. And because of this very long recovery I have been experiencing (translation - feeling like crap every day) I didn't feel very disease free, so to speak.

But Dr. Chamberlain came in and said "well your scans are completely clean. You are 100% cancer free." I had nothing anywhere! I read the report and there are no shadows, no "areas suggestive of carcinoma blah, blah, blah." I have a brand new liver thanks to the incredible Dr. Chamberlain and she's a beauty!!!!

I am meeting with my wonderful Dr. Moriarty next Tuesday to talk about the scan there as well and what will happen next. He already had told me he is not putting me on anymore chemo or erbitux anytime soon to give my body a badly, and I mean badly, needed break.

There really are no words to describe how this all feels. This is beyond my wildest dreams. I am overcome with joy, and humility all at the same time. I have been so blessed with really incredible doctors, with really incredible staff since the beginning of this horrific nightmare. My family and friends and strangers from all over have been supportive and loving and caring not just to me but to my husband and my children. I honestly don't know what to say. I really don't. I keep staring at the screen because I am just dumbfounded not just by today but by the last 2.5 years.

I will continue to post of course. I can't say thank you enough times to everyone. I do selfishly ask for continued prayers though, that I never experience a recurrance. That should be an easy one for God right?

I am going to enjoy the rest of the evening hanging out with my hubby in great peace and tranquility.

With a grateful, and humble heart and say thank you.

With much love,